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Jul. 6th, 2012

lolita
Uggggh. I haven't updated this in fooorrever.

So, here's an update!

...About the lack of updates. >.>
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What's the most important lesson your mom taught you?


That some people shouldn't be parents. That's pretty much it.

Mar. 30th, 2011

lolita
Fuck my life.

I felt so insanely motivated for like, two days. I felt confident. I felt like an adult for the first time ever. I felt free. I felt excited about the future.

And now it's just.. gone. I feel anxious again. And stressed. And weak. And lost. And alone.

I don't think anything will ever work out for me.

I'm too messed up. I'm too curious. I'm too weird and spazzy and panicky.

Ack.

Nov. 9th, 2010

lolita
I felt of moment of perfection tonight. A small, amazing moment of happiness and peace. So, of course, I feel the need to mark it somehow for future reference.

This is only going to make sense to one other person on the face of this charming little planet, but whatever.


Thank you for the amazing moment. My favorite book and my favorite person.

You truly are mind-blowing.

Writer's Block: Random acts of kindness

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LJ::User=HASH(0x2b2966aea9f0)
What is the nicest thing you've ever done for a stranger? What is the nicest thing a stranger has ever done for you?


Whenever I have an extra $20 and I don't need anything dire, I go to Starbucks and I pay for the new few people in line.

I don't remember a stranger ever doing anything nice for me.

Writer's Block: Power of expression

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If you were given the chance, what one thing would you tell the entire world?


I suppose I would say that we're all in this together and that life should not be reduced to a competition to see who can have the most money and the most shit they don't need.

We need to stop treating each other like shit and maybe try working together for once.

I would also tell people that they should stop using God as an excuse to control other people's lives.

Sep. 5th, 2010

lolita
I just want to scream, and scream, and scream.

Unhinge my jaw, throw back my head and let loose a sound that will fill the cavern beneath my ribs. The hollow space that is only full when I'm blitzed out of my mind. The hollow space that gnaws at me when I'm alone in this haunted house. The hollow space that makes my thoughts ricochet inside my skull so violently that I haven't been able to sleep nightmare free for days.

I'm afraid to make friends anymore because I know I will devour them. My need, my panic, my depression; it will gobble them up before they can run far, far away.

It's so loud in my head, full of screaming regrets and shrieking concerns. My head is never silent. Never. And I am never at peace. Never.

Writer's Block: In search of lost time

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LJ::User=HASH(0x2b2967160020)
What is your fondest childhood memory? How often does it come to mind?


Lol, I do not have fond childhood memories.

Writer's Block: If I were president ...

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LJ::User=HASH(0x2b296750b4c0)
What would you do if you were president or prime minister for a day?


It's depressing how many people answer with war related answers. :|

I would end the war, cut down tuition costs, legalize gay marriage, legalize pot and everything else that I can cram into one day.

Of course, you can't really do any of that in one day, but let's pretend that we can, k?